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First of all can I start this by saying I'm not even sure why I'm writing this. Perhaps just a cathartic exercise and any comments or thoughts from anyone that's been in the same position might be nice I guess.
I'm closing my business. I'm giving up, walking away, and turning my back on it. I can't help but feel like a failure, but at the same time I'm an idiot for continuing to try and flog a dead horse.
Business is a bakers/sandwich shop set up in 2018. We had a turbulent first year when one of the 3 partners left but then things settled down - myself and my business partner remained, he works full time in the business - and were actually looking pretty promising until Covid hit. It's just ruined us, and it's not getting any better. We are heavily reliant on the lunchtime trade and deliveries to offices etc which has completely been dessimated and won't ever revert to how it was before as people remain working at home. Going on Ubereats/Deliveroo has helped to keep things going but it's still just about been breaking even or losing a small amount week on week, these losses are now creeping up as the energy and food costs shoot up and there's only so much we can pass on - people have a "ceiling" in their head of a reasonable amount to spend on lunch and as everyone feels the pinch the last thing we can be doing is going through that.
Meanwhile I have continued to manage a full-time job which often involves working away abroad for days and full weeks at a time. In the evenings I deal with accounts and bits of admin, Saturdays I spend working in the shop and sometimes Sundays, as well as helping out during the week to do the odd delivery or go to Bookers. Not to mention that each time the funds drip away it's me that's turned to to put my hand in my pocket and prop it up as I'm the one that's seemed to have the steady income.
Enough is enough. I'm tired. Beyond tired, in fact. I'm sick of not being able to concentrate on my work because I'm worrying about how many ****ing sandwiches we're going to sell today and if we're on track to break even. I'm tired of getting home from a 3 or 4 day trip on Friday evening and setting an alarm for 7am Saturday to go and serve pies and breakfasts. I'm tired of being tired, tired of being stressed. It's contributed towards the recent end of my relationship with the love of my life - because I didn't give her the attention and be around in the way I should have been, nor did I have the money to do some of the things we planned this year because I sank more money into propping up a failing business. I'm tired of saying "let's see how the next couple of weeks go' and I'm tired of trying to think of small changes and little things we can try that ultimately don't make a big enough difference. I'm tired of having ideas that we can't implement because we don't have any money to do so. I'm done....so what if I've failed? I tried, and now I'll go and live a normal life with a normal amount of free time to myself and enjoyy spending my wages on the things I want to.
As for what happens now.... I don't know, nor fully care. There are debts of about £20k - the problem is a lot of this is to friends and family and on a personal level I won't bump it and see them out of pocket. My first offer is for my partner to take it over - if he takes responsibility for all of the debts then I will hand over everything to him and write off the many thousands of pounds it owes me, not to mention the last almost 4 years of my life that I've wasted.
If he doesn't want to do that then I'll bump it and make separate agreements with the family and friends to continue paying them off. If I have to pay out a few hundred pounds a month for the next few years then honestly, I'm so done with the whole place that I will do. It would give me less stress and pain to do that than it would to continue being involved with the bloody place.
I don't actually know what's involved in liquidating a company of this size (debts 20k ish, no significant assets to speak of other than some fridges and freezers really) in terms of costs and procedure, does anyone? I assume it has to go through a legal process with the creditors involved?
But whatever is involved.....Enough is enough and I guess you have to accept when you have failed.....right???

I'm closing my business. I'm giving up, walking away, and turning my back on it. I can't help but feel like a failure, but at the same time I'm an idiot for continuing to try and flog a dead horse.
Business is a bakers/sandwich shop set up in 2018. We had a turbulent first year when one of the 3 partners left but then things settled down - myself and my business partner remained, he works full time in the business - and were actually looking pretty promising until Covid hit. It's just ruined us, and it's not getting any better. We are heavily reliant on the lunchtime trade and deliveries to offices etc which has completely been dessimated and won't ever revert to how it was before as people remain working at home. Going on Ubereats/Deliveroo has helped to keep things going but it's still just about been breaking even or losing a small amount week on week, these losses are now creeping up as the energy and food costs shoot up and there's only so much we can pass on - people have a "ceiling" in their head of a reasonable amount to spend on lunch and as everyone feels the pinch the last thing we can be doing is going through that.
Meanwhile I have continued to manage a full-time job which often involves working away abroad for days and full weeks at a time. In the evenings I deal with accounts and bits of admin, Saturdays I spend working in the shop and sometimes Sundays, as well as helping out during the week to do the odd delivery or go to Bookers. Not to mention that each time the funds drip away it's me that's turned to to put my hand in my pocket and prop it up as I'm the one that's seemed to have the steady income.
Enough is enough. I'm tired. Beyond tired, in fact. I'm sick of not being able to concentrate on my work because I'm worrying about how many ****ing sandwiches we're going to sell today and if we're on track to break even. I'm tired of getting home from a 3 or 4 day trip on Friday evening and setting an alarm for 7am Saturday to go and serve pies and breakfasts. I'm tired of being tired, tired of being stressed. It's contributed towards the recent end of my relationship with the love of my life - because I didn't give her the attention and be around in the way I should have been, nor did I have the money to do some of the things we planned this year because I sank more money into propping up a failing business. I'm tired of saying "let's see how the next couple of weeks go' and I'm tired of trying to think of small changes and little things we can try that ultimately don't make a big enough difference. I'm tired of having ideas that we can't implement because we don't have any money to do so. I'm done....so what if I've failed? I tried, and now I'll go and live a normal life with a normal amount of free time to myself and enjoyy spending my wages on the things I want to.
As for what happens now.... I don't know, nor fully care. There are debts of about £20k - the problem is a lot of this is to friends and family and on a personal level I won't bump it and see them out of pocket. My first offer is for my partner to take it over - if he takes responsibility for all of the debts then I will hand over everything to him and write off the many thousands of pounds it owes me, not to mention the last almost 4 years of my life that I've wasted.
If he doesn't want to do that then I'll bump it and make separate agreements with the family and friends to continue paying them off. If I have to pay out a few hundred pounds a month for the next few years then honestly, I'm so done with the whole place that I will do. It would give me less stress and pain to do that than it would to continue being involved with the bloody place.
I don't actually know what's involved in liquidating a company of this size (debts 20k ish, no significant assets to speak of other than some fridges and freezers really) in terms of costs and procedure, does anyone? I assume it has to go through a legal process with the creditors involved?
But whatever is involved.....Enough is enough and I guess you have to accept when you have failed.....right???
